Tuesday, November 30, 2010

End of November

December is coming.......

Ternyata udah nggak ngeblog 2 bulan, nggak berasa saking sibuknya dengan project-project dikantor yang mau deadline. Satu persatu project akhirnya go live walaupun masih ada yg belum go live, mudah2an semuanya lancar, doain ya.............

Sebentar lagi liburan......
Kakak rayna, rafan is comingg......
Do't forget to pick me up ya
Cuman berdua nih berangkatnya sama rafan
Deg2an juga sih, bisa nggak ya
Insya Allah bisa, karena kemaren2 udah pernah ke dokter, ke mall berdua aja sama rafan. Tapi yg ini agak beda sih, selama nunggu boarding ngapain ya? trus selama di pesawat rafan maenan apa ya? belum lagi bawaan rafan yg segambreng2 itu, susunya, bajunya etc etc. Secara rafan maniak susu, susah kalo nggak bawa susunya bisa-bisa mimi yang pingsan karena nggak tahan dengerin permintaan rafan. "Mama mama aku mau susu, sekarang mama, mama kenapa masih diem aja" haiyah... nih anak......

Hmm heran, kenapa ya orang-orang bilang sekarang mimi tambah kurus, perasaan sih biasa aja. Tapi karena emang nggak suka gemuk, disyukuri aja kekurusan ini asal nggak sakit.

O iya skr mimi udah aktif di twitter lho, buat accountnya sih udah lama tapi akhir2 ini baru memutuskan exist di twitter, biar gaul gitu lho :D
Check me out @blue_goldfish, tweetnya dibuat protected karena tweetnya banyak yg personal jadi nggak sembarangan orang boleh tahu, ihh sok gaya ya mimi, biarin aja yang penting happy :D *nggaknyambung.com*

Karena akhir2 ini terlalu sibuk jadi lupa punya blog plus repot kalo akses blog via handphone jadilah jarang diupdate. Foto terbaru rafan ada di facebook, rafan terlihat imutttt sekali. I love rafan trus rafan akan balas bilang i love mama.

O iya laporan pembuatan empek2 menyusul ya, suatu keajaiban mimi membuat empek2 dan masuk ke dapur, mbak aja sampe terheran-heran dan mimi bilang, "mbak foto mama dong di dapur, jarang2 nih" dan mbak pun dgn sigap mengambil handphone dan memfoto mimi :D.

Pulang dulu ya, jam 7:02pm dan masih dikantor bersiap2 nebeng temen untuk pulang.

Friday, September 24, 2010

home sweet home

akhirnya.....
rumah aruba sudah pernah ditiduri :D
kita udah punya kitchen set, kulkas, tipi, tempat tidur, meja makan, ac
yah lumayanlah, cukup memadai untuk maen rumah2an di aruba :D
plus papa udah beli PS3 yg katanya akan segera dilengkapi dgn ps move
walaupun ide awalnya adalah beli nintendo wii
mana move-nya mana? ingin maen tenis nih :)

st james dan corelle plus sendok garpu serena sudah resmi dipergunakan
menyenangkan ternyata makan dgn peralatan makan yg lucu2 itu
karena sesuatu dan lain hal peralata masak memasak biasa aja, beli di giant or pasar kecuali caserolle luminarc yg dibeli karena diskon beli 1 gratis 1 waktu jakarta great sale kemaren

hmm open house udah belum ya
yg pasti gp plus aabs sekeluarga udah pernah ke aruba
keluarga papa juga
sabtu besok temen2 mimi juga mau ke aruba

dan mbak udah pulang... hore......
walaupun sempet bikin deg2an akhirnya pulang juga
sempet menjadi upik abu 2 minggu lbh 1 hari
bener2 upik abu
nyapu, masak, ngepel, nyuci piring, nyuci baju, nyetrika
hu hu hu hu hu
pas libur sih no problem
pas udah masuk kerja berasa deh, bingung mikirin masak apa buat besok
sampai akhirnya nyerah masak sendiri dan nitip nenek untuk masakin :)

belum sempet copy foto2 rumah baru nih
somehow laptop ini ngambek membaca sd card :(

dan akhirnya....
setelah melalui pertimbangan yg cukup panjang
mimi membeli black berry
hmm nggak berasa sih bedanya dgn hp biasa
karena mimi nggak maniak chatting or browsing or facebook or twitter
jadi ya biasa2 aja
cuman dulu sms-an sama papa skr jadi bbm-an
nggak gratis juga sih, kan bulanannya bayar
dan chan chan njo menolak membeli bb
karena nggak keren dan pasaran katanya
alhasil nggak jadi gratis deh kalo smsan sama chan chan njo

besok ke aruba lagi
beres2 menyambut teman2 smp :)

happy weekend everyone
maaf lahir batin

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

just a thoughts

sometimes you take for granted people around you. people who love you the most, people who care about you, because you think no matter what i do they will always love me, so why bother and try to impress them.

as time passed, a person supposes to develop his capacity as a human being. to be more patient, understanding, wise but sometime it only happened for some people and the other never change as if they still at the age 17 when you doing thing without thinking about the consequences.

a relationship always go through an up and down moment. some said it makes the relationship more stronger but on the other hand it showed that maybe there is something wrong with the relationship and you have to fix it. if you never do anything about it then the same thing will happen again, up and down. anger, frustation and desperate will occured until one of you can't stand it anymore or one of you just accept it in the name of something that she/he believed. so fix it, do something about it. it's never too late, you just need a courage to start it and willing to take the consequences.

you never make a wrong decision. a good decision lead you to a path that you expected, a bad decision lead you to unexpected path but it teaches you something and you became richer afterward.

Friday, August 20, 2010

i love you mom, i do and i always will

i never think about death, i mean really think about it until my mom passed away last month. Being so naive, i knew that this day will come but i don't expect it coming so soon. It should be just another peaceful sunday morning where i suppose to spend time with rafan and papa, but it turned out to be mourning day. My mom got a heart attack at sunday morning before dawn, i was there next to her until her last breath, accompanied her to the hospital, and be with her until i couldn't see her anymore. I cried a lot, until i felt i have no more tears and kept thinking that it shouldn't happened and wished that it's only a dream, a bad one.

have you ever asked something in particular to Allah? i did, almost ten years ago. He didn't give me what i asked for, no matter how hard i pray at that time. i didn't know why but i believe that it was the best for me. i still couldn't figure out why until today and the result of that prayer is i changed the way i pray. now, i always asked Allah to give the best for me no matter what it is, bad or good experience. because it will rich me in a way that He can only understand.

things happened for a purpose, like a proverb said every dark cloud has a silver lining. you may not see the silver lining now, but years a head when you looked back you will realise that it was meant for something.

my mom passed away because her time has arrived and also because it was the best things for her, me and my family. i love you mom, i do and i always will.

Thursday, July 08, 2010

Breakfast at Tiffany's

You say that we've got nothing in common
No common ground to start from and we're falling apart
You'll say the world has come between us
Our lives have come between us still I know you just don't care

And I said, ?What about breakfast at Tiffany's??
She said, "I think I remember the film?
And as I recall, I think, we both kinda liked it
And I said, "Well, that's the one thing we've got"

I see you, the only one who knew me
And now your eyes see through me I guess I was wrong
So what now it's plain to see we're over
And I hate when things are over when so much is left undone

And I said, ?What about breakfast at Tiffany's?
She said, "I think I remember the film?
And as I recall, I think, we both kinda liked it
And I said, "Well, that's the one thing we've got"

You say that we've got nothing in common
No common ground to start from and we're falling apart
You'll say the world has come between us
Our lives have come between us still I know you just don't care

And I said, ?What about breakfast at Tiffany's?
She said, "I think I remember the film?
And as I recall, I think, we both kinda liked it
And I said, "Well, that's the one thing we've got"

And I said, ?What about breakfast at Tiffany's?
She said, "I think I remember the film?
And as I recall, I think, we both kinda liked it
And I said, "Well, that's the one thing we've got"

And I said, ?What about breakfast at Tiffany's?
She said, "I think I remember the film?
And as I recall, I think, we both kinda liked it
And I said, "Well, that's the one thing we've got"

*OneOfMyFavouriteSongofAllTime*

Monday, July 05, 2010

I Don't Want to Wait

So open up your morning light
And say a little prayer for I
You know that if we are to stay alive
And see the peace in every I

She had two babies
One was six months one was three
In the war of '44
Every telephone ring
Every heartbeat stinging
When she thought it was God calling her
Oh would her son grow to know his father

[CHORUS:]

I don't want to wait
For our lives to be over
I want to know right know
What will it be
I don't want to wait
For our lives to be over
Will it be yes or will it be
Sorry

He showed up all wet
On the rainy front step
Wearing shrapnel in his skin
And the war he saw
Lives inside him still
It's so hard to be gentle and warm
The years passed by and now
He has granddaughters

[Chorus]

Oh so you look at me
From across the room
You're wearing your anguish again
Believe me, i know the feeling
It sucks you into the jaws of anger
Oh, so dig a little more deeply into my life
All we have is the very moment
And I don't want to do what
His father and his father and his father did
I want to be here now

So open up your morning light
And say a little prayer for I
You know that if we are to stay alive
And see the peace in every I

[Chorus (2 times)]

So open up your morning light
And say a little prayer for I
You know that if we are to stay alive
And see the love in every eye

*TakenFromOneOfMyFavouriteTvSerialDawson'sCreek*

Thursday, July 01, 2010

What happen after........ & other random things

baiklah, apa yang terjadi setelah hampir seminggu makan bubur dan tidak mengunyah?
- bab lancar
- kayaknya sih berat badan turun
- perut tidak buncit
- nafsu makan berkurang
- lidah menjadi lebih lentur
- rahang menjadi sedikit kaku
please think about those things above before you make your mind for having teeth operation

i had 3 days off work due to the swelling
but i still working from home because i can't stand doing nothing at home
it's great though, listen to rafan screaming and working at the same time
and manage to buy paddle pop with rafan and eat them while rafan sleeping :)
sorry cuddly cutie pie, sometimes i need my own time to enjoy the real taste of ice cream :D


ok bad news
apparently, not all gossip girl books are on sale @ times
but still i bought two more books :(
i feel so girly when it comes to activity called shopping

for my beloved sister
congrats for mac upin baby
wish you all the best sis
i suggest mac upin name to start with a letter 'R' :)

what is so fun about the future if you already know what will happen?
so please never go to fortune teller
they will ruin the fun
just wait for the surprise and hope it's a good suprise
is it an excuse for being so completely-don't-what-you-will-doing-after-the-project-done?
you'll never know until you find it
talk to you later
i know you can't enough of me
*gossipgirlmodestillon*

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Operasi Gigi Bungsu

Finally, setelah 2 minggu dari pengecekan pertama dan minggu kedua menjalani 2x testing untuk memastikan apakah bisa operasi atau tidak, akhirnya tadi siang gigi bungsu mimi yang kiri dioperasi.
Operasinya 1 jam dan penuh dengan bunyi2an yang cukup mengerikan karena giginya harus dibelah. Well, it was such an experience.
Being operate was a thing, after operation is another thing..........
yup, rasakanlah sakitnya setelah obat biusnya menghilang
eng ing eng....... nyut nyut nyut nyut
and suddenly i was in very very bad mood
can't eat, can't sleep, can't speak, can't do anything right
then i forced myself to eat a porridge by 'drinking' them and take the medicine while i can't open my mouth :(. After take a sleep for 1.5 hours i felt a lot better.
and i found myself writing in my blog because i can't sleep.

ok, enough being mourn due to my teeth and have some good news for myself :)
first, gossip girl books are in sale @ times, 50% off. it's the right time to complete my collection :)
second, finally what's we've waiting for it will come on next tuesday, i hope it's for real :)
third, it's sale everywhere. i hope i have times to check them out. well it sounds not a very goodnews, right?

the doctor advised me to take 2 days off from the office because my cheeks will be swelling for several days :(, meaning it's time to work from home. evethough i'm so sure i can work from home whenever rafan is around. he will calling mama mama let's play and he demands me to playing or just chatting with him. Well, i love him so much, how can i reject him... motherhood, you have to live with it.

it reminds me, maybe i have to cancel my lunch appointment with an old friend, since i can't eat anything. well just wait until wednesday, hope everything get better.
good night everyone, have a nice sunday, hope it will be a sunny day in this wet suppose to be dry season.

you know you love me *stillingossipgirlmode*

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Geregetan by Sherina

*
Ku lihat lagi.. Wajahnya
Ku lirik lagi.. Dia
S’makin ku pandang.. Wajahnya
S’makin rupawan.

**
Matanya.. Memancarkan cinta
Senyumnya.. Manja nan menggoda
Gayanya.. Wajar mempesona
Siapa dia.. Hey.. Hey..

Reff :
Geregetan.. Jadinya geregetan
Apa yang harus ku lakukan
Geregetan.. Duh aku geregetan
Mungkinkah aku jatuh cinta

Ku coba.. Ku sapa dirinya
Ku tanya.. Siapa namanya ( Hey sayang..)
Ku dengar.. Desah suaranya
Oh lengkaplah sudah

Back to Reff

Back to *, **, Reff

Geregetan.. Duh aku geregetan
Mungkinkah aku jatuh cinta

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

I'm Always Dreaming of You

I remember noticing you
No one knew that I was looking at you
Kept a disguise for fear inside you didn't feel it too
Couldn't tell you what it was you did
Your presence made a standing still in time
Taken by your stare I said a prayer someday you'll be mine

Well someone was watching, someone was listening
someone answered me
Now that I found you I can't live without you baby
oh baby

I'm always dreaming of you
(I'm always dreaming of you)
You're on my mind
(you're on my mind)
everywhere I go
(everywhere I go)
and baby don't you know
just what my world's been going through
(just what my world's been going through)
I try to stop my thoughts
(try to stop my thoughts)
but that would be a lie
(that would be a lie)
and I can't deny it's true
I'm always dreaming of you
(I'm always dreaming of you)

Nothing seems to matter anymore
Everyone I meet is not you (no one compares to you)
Life's not the same
I don't complain now that love feels true

Well someone was watching, someone was listening
someone answered me
Now that I found you I can't live without you baby
oh baby

I'm always dreaming of you
(I'm always dreaming of you)

You're on my mind
(you're on my mind)
everywhere I go
(everywhere I go)
and baby don't you know
just what my world's been going through
(just what my world's been going through)
I try to stop my thoughts
(try to stop my thoughts)
but that would be a lie
(that would be a lie)
and I can't deny it's true
I'm always dreaming of you
I'm always dreaming of you
I'm always dreaming of you

You're on my mind
(you're on my mind)
everywhere I go
(everywhere I go)
and baby don't you know
just what my world's been going through
(just what my world's been going through)
I try to stop my thoughts
(try to stop my thoughts)
but that would be a lie
(that would be a lie)
and I can't deny it's true
I'm always dreaming of you
I'm always dreaming of you
I'm always dreaming of you
I'm always dreaming of you
I'm always dreaming of you

"Wild World"

La...la...la...la...la
Now that I've lost everything to you
You say you want to start something new
And it's breaking my heart you're leaving
Baby I'm grieving

And if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
A lot of nice things turn bad out there

Oh baby, baby, it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile
(yeah...) oh baby, it's a wild world
I'll always remember you like a child girl

You know I've seen a lot of
What the world can do
And it's breaking my heart in two
Coz I never want to see you sad girl
Don't be a bad girl

But if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice freinds out there
Just remember there's
A lot of bad and beware
La...la...la...la...la...baby I love you.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Catatan di Bulan Mei

wah nggak berasa udah bulan mei ya
rumah imut keluarga mimi udah hampir jadi walaupun nggak ada exact date kapan jadinya
insya Allah sebelum lebaran or sesudah lebaran udah selesai semuanya
skr lagi sibuk liat2 harga furniture, elektronik, kitchen set, pembuatan taman en air mancur. banyak banget ya
yg pasti rafan dari awal udah request air mancur yg ada ikannya, mudah2an air mancurnya jadi sesuai yg diharapkan biar rafan seneng

mulai bulan juli rafan udah mulai masuk tk yg baru, tk yg lama ditinggalin karena GP nggak sreg dgn metode pengajarannya. jadinya harus daftar lagi deh, cari sekolah anak emang susah2 gampang, ini aja masih tk kalo udah sd gimana ya. mimi udah mulai mikir nih, nanti raf sd-nya dimana ya?

hore hore hore
kakak rayna bentar lagi mau dateng
rafan pasti seneng banget ada temennya
temen main en berbuat kenakalan tentunya
rafan udah tahu lho kalo sama kakak rayna ngomongnya pake bahasa inggris, padahal kakak rayna kan jago bahasa melayu juga
minta kakak rayna ajarin rafan bahasa inggris ah biar rafan tambah pinter :)

skr mimi lagi tergila2 sama barang pecah belah
kemaren beli sendok serena *kok nggak ada merk sendok blair ya*, nggak mahal2 amat sih tapi lumayan lah kalo beli 1 lusin sendok, 1 lusin garpu, 6 pcs sendok kecil en 6 pcs garpu kecil kalo ditotal yah lumayan menguras dompet juga. lagi kesemsem sama pecah belahnya saint james, udah punya beberapa mangkok-nya yg gede2 tapi ingin yg satu set tapi trus dilema mendingan beli saint james or corelle ya?
kalo 1 set sih harganya mirip2, tapi design saint james lbh rame aja
hmmm jadi bingung.... corelle or saint james ya......................
hidup memang penuh dengan pilihan pilihan yang sulit :D

selain pecah belah, mimi masih kesemsem sama gossip girl
skr lagi koleksi bukunya, ternyata bukunya banyak en mahal aja :D
yah lumayan deh belinya nyicil satu2 or tukeran oleh2 sama njo dgn buku gossip girl
dimulai dgn dibandara iseng2 mampir ke toko buku en belilah buku gossip girl yg terakhir ternyata seru juga karena beda banget sama tv seriesnya
mulai deh beli satu2 sambil berharap harganya nggak naik :)

asyik asyik besok libur
time for soto mie :D
njo en kakak rayna, kalo kesini kita beli soto mie ya
mudah2an ketagihan spt mimi, raf en papa :p
mimi traktir deh :D

happy holidays everyone
you know you love me *gossipgirlmodeon* :D

Thursday, January 21, 2010

First Love Never Dies

Maybe first love never ever dies
That’s why I’m still in love with you
Hold me close and look into my eyes
And tell me you don’t feel it too
The way it used to be when you told me
It would be forever, you and me together

And, we never really said goodbye
We never really said it’s over
We never really said goodbye
First love never dies
When I saw you I could hardly speak
You’re just as beautiful as ever babe
I guess it’s still the same mystique
First love never dies

Maybe you just wasted all of your love
We can’t go back but we go on
Singing love songs we have once begun
Before we drifted far apart
Before I knew I lost my heart
We’ll live forever, only you (only you)
With my life together

We never really said goodbye
We never really said it’s over
We never really said goodbye
First love never dies
When I saw you I could hardly speak
You’re just as beautiful as ever babe
I guess it’s still the same mystique
First love never dies

Thefirst love, never dies
It never dies (it never does)
First love never dies...

We never really said goodbye
We never really said it's over
We never really said goodbye
First love never dies..........

Monday, January 11, 2010

Happy New Year

Selamat tahun baru............
walaupun agak telat mari kita sambut tahun 2010 dgn sukacita dan bersemangat!!!!!

selamat ulang tahun untuk diri sendiri tercinta :)
yg mulai memasuki tahap baru dalam per-umuran :D tapi ttp merasa selalu awet muda
kalo lagi sebel or marah2 harus tetap berpikir positif biar wajah tidak berkerut2

ulang tahun kali ini nggak bagi2 kue di kantor lbh karena males en udah lewat anyway, tapi tiup lilin dan potong kue di rumah. Rafan keukeuh banget untuk niup lilin, alhasil lilin dinyalakan dan ditiup berkali-kali demi anak kecil nan imut nggak ngambek.

sekarang rafan makin cerewet, terutama di pagi hari ketika bangun tidur. jam bangun rafan nggak matching dengan mama en papa. rafan bangun jam setengah 4 or jam 4 pagi trus akan menganggu mama dan papa sampai salah satu diantara kita bangun. otherwise dia akan panggil2 terus gegulingan dan menjejak2 sampai salah mama or papa mengalah untuk bangun en nemenin rafan. biasanya sih papa yg bangun duluan, en mama nerusin bobo lagi sampai dibangunin papa :D. bangun pagi sehat lho pa :p

judulnya tahun baru kok isinya ngawur ya :D

resolusi tahun ini apa ya?
banyak banget.... en besar pengaruhnya untuk mimi
mudah2an Allah SWT selalu mempermudah semua urusan mimi biar semuanya lancar

o iya rumah mimi udah mulai dibangun lho....
akhirnya.... papa aja sampai terharu biru melihat rumah kita dibangun
senangnya.......

semangat!!!!!